Hi, my name is Theresa and my 7 ½ month old son just slept in a crib for the first time. Before that he was in an infant basinet beside our bed.
There, I got that off my chest.
One of the most surprising things to me, in this new journey of parenting, is how little confidence I feel. I always thought, pre-children, that mothering would come easy. After all, I have a degree in teaching them, I’ve held infants since I was very young, and at any party I’ve been to, I find the baby and hold it. I know babies. I love them.
And then we had Liam.
With that came this feeling of a total lack of knowledge and confidence in what we’re doing.
And the questions? Oh the questions! Should I be holding him right now? Is he getting enough food? Did he sleep long enough? Should I be playing with him, or should he learn to play on his own? Should he be in the church nursery, or maybe in church with us? Is that just the sniffles, or something more that I need to check out? Did I feed him the right food in the right order? Will he learn to like sweet potatoes? Should I be letting him cry at night or will that hinder his attachment to us?
Added to all of that the opinions of others. I think a large part of our guilt and lack of confidence is our comparison to others. We look at how others parent their children and think we need to do things the same way. As if there is some sort of cookie cutter method. Do A and B and that will equal C.
And here (at the beginning of this journey I realize) is what I’ve learned.
I need to trust my gut. I need to do what feels right in the moment. Sure I’ll make lots of mistakes along the way, and we’ll deal with the consequences of those mistakes I’m sure, but in the end, he’s ours. God has entrusted him to us to raise in the best way we know how. His grace will cover our shortcomings and the praise will be His when we do something right.
I’m off to feed my son some lunch? Yogurt. That’s what he’s supposed to have, right?